My metal heart no longer beats a drum
In mercury and arteries of tin.
Instead, my circuit board keeps the rhythm,
And I keep all my loneliness within.
My eyes are glass, but still I see the Earth
And all its people, and wish that I was one,
But that is not my place, was not my birth,
And so I turn my back against the Sun.
Immobile is my time, but not my mind.
It lives and breathes as any human should.
If one day in the future I should find
That I could live among them, then I would.
My prison is my silver shell and frame,
And yet it is my consciousness I blame.
My rubber egg is not much, at a glance.
It seems to be a mere rubber ball.
But if you give my egg a second chance,
You'll see that that is not the case at all.
My egg is made of rubber, that is true,
But from the corner of your weary eye
You might think it was from a cockatoo,
Or from a hen, but that would be a lie.
The point that I am trying hard to make
Is not that you are foolish, or love birds.
I'm asking why you thought this egg was fake
Was it your eyes, or was it just my words?
Perhaps you're just intolerant, or worse;
Afraid of eggs who tell their tales in verse.
Six limbs sprout from the centre, lifeless arms.
A disc-like structure forms your fragile roots.
Your leaves are coloured brightly, china charms.
You bear no petals, flowers, scents or fruit,
And yet your purpose could be greater still
Than trees that grow and give life to the Earth.
Disguised as something bare and lost, until
It is my wish to quench my daily thirst.
And then, mug tree, you spring once more to life.
Your leaves become the vessels of the Sun
As hot elixir melts away the strife
In caffeine form, of all and everyone.
Oh, mug tree, at first glance you seem so poor,
But you're the only tree that I adore.
Night In, Night Out extract 3 by Anwenx, literature
Literature
Night In, Night Out extract 3
You were supposed to be sad when your husband died. Margaret Harper from number 32 had sold the house and found God. Diane McDonald had moved to Spain and disappeared from the face of the Earth.
Anne Malone was sitting contented in her kitchen listening to the radio and drinking a cup of tea.
She had been writing an 18th birthday card for her niece when she found out that she'd become a widow.
'Widow'. The word reminded her of melancholy old women sitting in castles in the Highlands, swathed in black and wailing in rocking chairs.
It hadn't really surprised her to hear that her husband had died of a heart attack at the tender age of 55. I
Night In, Night Out extract 2 by Anwenx, literature
Literature
Night In, Night Out extract 2
"Should I leave and come in again?" Will asked, closing the door slowly behind him and raising one eyebrow in the way that had always slightly irritated David.
"What do you mean?"
"You look like you could quite happily kill someone."
"Oh. Sorry. There wasn't any water in the kettle."
Will folded his arms.
"I'm hoping there's more to it than that," he said. "Otherwise I'm scared that I've been living with a child for the past four years."
David chewed his lip before replying. He had to phrase this delicately, sugar-coat it.
"There was something else," he said slowly, pausing again. Oh God. There really was going to be no other option. I
Life is an open narrative, and there's no point in pretending that it's not. Even after you're dead, your plotlines and cliffhangers continue and bleed into the lives of others. Life isn't a cycle. It's a line. Until we start walking around dragging our knuckles and picking lice out of each other's hair then I refuse to believe that life repeats itself. It doesn't. One thing happens and then it's gone and something else happens, growing out of the shadows of the previous event. We have to accept what's happened because we can't undo it.
Get out of my brain. Get out. Stop casting your ebony shadow over everything I do and see and say and turn
My metal heart no longer beats a drum
In mercury and arteries of tin.
Instead, my circuit board keeps the rhythm,
And I keep all my loneliness within.
My eyes are glass, but still I see the Earth
And all its people, and wish that I was one,
But that is not my place, was not my birth,
And so I turn my back against the Sun.
Immobile is my time, but not my mind.
It lives and breathes as any human should.
If one day in the future I should find
That I could live among them, then I would.
My prison is my silver shell and frame,
And yet it is my consciousness I blame.
My rubber egg is not much, at a glance.
It seems to be a mere rubber ball.
But if you give my egg a second chance,
You'll see that that is not the case at all.
My egg is made of rubber, that is true,
But from the corner of your weary eye
You might think it was from a cockatoo,
Or from a hen, but that would be a lie.
The point that I am trying hard to make
Is not that you are foolish, or love birds.
I'm asking why you thought this egg was fake
Was it your eyes, or was it just my words?
Perhaps you're just intolerant, or worse;
Afraid of eggs who tell their tales in verse.
Six limbs sprout from the centre, lifeless arms.
A disc-like structure forms your fragile roots.
Your leaves are coloured brightly, china charms.
You bear no petals, flowers, scents or fruit,
And yet your purpose could be greater still
Than trees that grow and give life to the Earth.
Disguised as something bare and lost, until
It is my wish to quench my daily thirst.
And then, mug tree, you spring once more to life.
Your leaves become the vessels of the Sun
As hot elixir melts away the strife
In caffeine form, of all and everyone.
Oh, mug tree, at first glance you seem so poor,
But you're the only tree that I adore.
Night In, Night Out extract 3 by Anwenx, literature
Literature
Night In, Night Out extract 3
You were supposed to be sad when your husband died. Margaret Harper from number 32 had sold the house and found God. Diane McDonald had moved to Spain and disappeared from the face of the Earth.
Anne Malone was sitting contented in her kitchen listening to the radio and drinking a cup of tea.
She had been writing an 18th birthday card for her niece when she found out that she'd become a widow.
'Widow'. The word reminded her of melancholy old women sitting in castles in the Highlands, swathed in black and wailing in rocking chairs.
It hadn't really surprised her to hear that her husband had died of a heart attack at the tender age of 55. I
Night In, Night Out extract 2 by Anwenx, literature
Literature
Night In, Night Out extract 2
"Should I leave and come in again?" Will asked, closing the door slowly behind him and raising one eyebrow in the way that had always slightly irritated David.
"What do you mean?"
"You look like you could quite happily kill someone."
"Oh. Sorry. There wasn't any water in the kettle."
Will folded his arms.
"I'm hoping there's more to it than that," he said. "Otherwise I'm scared that I've been living with a child for the past four years."
David chewed his lip before replying. He had to phrase this delicately, sugar-coat it.
"There was something else," he said slowly, pausing again. Oh God. There really was going to be no other option. I
Life is an open narrative, and there's no point in pretending that it's not. Even after you're dead, your plotlines and cliffhangers continue and bleed into the lives of others. Life isn't a cycle. It's a line. Until we start walking around dragging our knuckles and picking lice out of each other's hair then I refuse to believe that life repeats itself. It doesn't. One thing happens and then it's gone and something else happens, growing out of the shadows of the previous event. We have to accept what's happened because we can't undo it.
Get out of my brain. Get out. Stop casting your ebony shadow over everything I do and see and say and turn
Dear anxiety, you are a bitch. by TheDeviDee, literature
Literature
Dear anxiety, you are a bitch.
Dear anxiety, you are a cold, callous lover.
With your barbed wired clutch you electrocute my soul
and your glass kisses give me tremors.
No, I will not admit that I am even colder without your embrace.
Dear anxiety, you are an iron-barred cage.
Within your tiny cell I am held captive, grounded,
and freedom is just another word in the dictionary I cannot comprehend.
No, I will not admit that I never had wings to begin with.
Dear anxiety, you are the wicked side of nature.
You fill my heart with black butterflies,
and singe me with the silent poison of your acid rain.
No, I will not admit that I've been burned far worse by the Sun.
Good evening, Moon!
You've gotten bigger since I last saw you.
How was your trip around the world?
Did you get your fair share of the sun?
I hope you weren't feeling blue at all,
Though it's not like that happens often, is it?
Oh, Moon, you need to stop letting people walk all over you!
You may have been waning a bit in recent days,
But you're surrounded by stars
And you've always been such a big influence on the ocean.
And everyone down here?
All of us little people?
Didn't you know?
We all look up to you!
The Puppet Master & The Monsters
Behind the wall of veiled ebony,
Bejewelled with onyx, beauty in the night,
Lie dormant monsters, elements of me,
That masquerade as elegant delight
And wage a war with filthy vanity;
My saviour is the seventh deadly sin
That aims to bleed into my sanity
And lift the strangling smoke that lies within
My consciousness, expressed as golden strands,
A lying aura, monster of my mind
That taunts and makes a puppet of my hands.
The puppet master dwells in sleep behind
The wall of ebony inside my brain
And dances merry in the velvet rain.
I'm Anwen, a self-confessed oddball with 20 years of life experience and no way of reaching the top shelf in supermarkets. I like tea, shoes and dresses and every day is a bad hair day.
Current Residence: Wales, UK deviantWEAR sizing preference: Pixie-sized. No, really. I'm only 5ft. Favourite genre of music: Bit of a random mix. Eclectic, even. Personal Quote: We aren't robots and we're not puppets.
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Marina & The Diamonds, Florence & The Machine etc.
Favourite Writers
I like the Romantics (Keats, Byron), Shakespeare, and Oscar Wilde.
1. Very bad hair day today. Le sigh.
2. Thrown myself into writing more of my book to occupy myself :)
3. Have given one of the main characters trich. I want to see it represented in fiction.
4. 5 days...
Merde and poo and bugger and lots of rude words.
Boy hair, here I come again. Sick of this. Wanted to make a good impression at uni. Will instead be turning up looking like a pre-pubescent male with bald patches. Grr.
In other news, noodles for dinner. Om nom nom.
Sigh. The parents are not going to be impressed. My mum said I looked like a lesbian last time I got my hair cut... thanks for your support, mum :D